Making Sense of All of It

Everyone wonders at some time or other where they came from.  And with the advent of Internet genealogy programs such as Ancestry.com, many of us are finding whole new worlds of questions and answers - as well as experiencing a new addiction.  When we glimpse light down the path which leads back in time, we follow, eager to see more of where we came from, knowing that the blood of these people we have never known flows in us and is part of us.

It has been speculated that our DNA contains memories which belonged to our ancestors, and that we are affected by who they were in more ways than our obvious physical characteristics.  I find this fascinating in light of what I have discovered lately.

I was always obsessed with Knights in Armor.  King Arthur was my hero when I was young.  I devoured every book on medieval legends I could find, reading at least a book a day.  (My family moved a lot and I have been known to describe myself as "fostered by the Public Library.")  When I ultimately wheedled my father into buying me horses, I dressed them in carefully sewn costumes made from old bed sheets, and galloped merrily about as if jousting.  How interesting then, that I have a family tree filled with knights and warriors.

I went to many schools as a child, and cannot tell you their names or locations.  I can name only a few individuals who passed for friends in those days, and have not been able to track of them over the years.  But I recall that time and again I was nicknamed "Queen" or "Queenie" for reasons I cannot tell you.  As I grew older, I was also repeatedly referred to as "Queen" and have experienced what it is like to be offered gifts as tribute or some other odd attempt to solicit domination.  I have even had someone outright tell me that he believed he served me in another life, sometime in the 10th century, when I was a queen.  During those times I never had an inkling that there were so many queens in my pedigree.  I had no clue.  But I wonder if blood speaks on a subliminal level.  Others sense it withouth knowing why?  In any case, I marvel at the pattern of royalty I have tapped into via my research into who I came from.